Believe me, I know that these donation posts have been constant and every year it’s been a different reason from being pregnant and unable to work to having my wrist injury to being hospitalized and not being able to pay bills to literally just being so far behind with everything that I don’t know what to do. But I have literally been hit with shit after shit after shit and over the course of YEARS have not been able to take a breath or get back onto my feet. I work every day possible to make enough to pay our bills. I am the only person in my household besides my daughter. I don’t have a working car. Ive been hospitalized at least 4 times just this year and been sent to collections for those visits. My parents help me and watch my daughter for me while I work because I can’t afford daycare or babysitting. And due to their own personal reasons, we can’t live with them. For the people who see my donations posts and don’t believe them or care and just keep scrolling, I appreciate you. For the people who join in the notes and tell people that I’m “laundering money” or scamming people, I wish I was. I wish I got $100,000 from people and lived in a mansion and could have whatever I wanted or whatever it is that you guys think I’m doing. Above is my bank balance, two bills and another collections notice. These were all taken today around 12 pm. And the REASONS I’m so stressed is this isn’t the end of it. I have paper bills sent to my house for hospital visits from when I was assaulted/had a hole in my uterus/etc. , I have a car that doesn’t work and isn’t drivable so I have to depend on other people to get me to and from work because I can’t afford Uber, I have to worry about where our food comes from and if we can afford groceries. We’ve been trying to leave the place we’re staying because of really terrible reasons that I’ve tried to distance myself from. But my whole point is that whether you believe me or not, I’m doing my best and I’m not trying to force anyone to do something out of their means. I’m not trying to get people to feel bad for me and guilt them into falling for my sob stories. I already feel bad enough myself that no matter what I do I can’t get ahead and I am STILL working my hardest to get there. I just really can’t do this and I am by myself and I’m at what I feel like is the lowest point in my life. Everyone is entitled to their opinion and I can understand that not everyone on the internet tells the truth and it always seems to be something else with me. I just don’t know where else to turn. So thank you for everything. Thank you for scrolling past when you see them or sending a few bucks. I really really appreciate everything.
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